On the outside he had everything, but on the inside he felt nothing.
He was one of the best punters in the NFL and won a Super Bowl with the Indianapolis Colts in 2007. But Hunter Smith learned that fame and fortune and football don’t fulfill him. In fact, just two years into his professional career he realized on the outside he had everything, but on the inside he felt nothing.
Hunter left football in 2010—after being let go from the Washington Redskins—and started a career in music. Growing up in Texas, singing and playing the guitar was nearly as ingrained in him as football was, and now Hunter has found that writing and performing allow him to “focus on the stuff that lasts.”
“I remember being in my second year in the NFL. I was single. I drove a nice truck. I had a big group of friends. I was making lots of money and I had no one to spend it on but me. I was having one of the best years in the NFL as a punter, and I remember writing in my journal…that I had never in my life felt lower than I did right then. I felt lonely, but I also felt something that’s even scarier than loneliness…I felt nothing.
I think that a lot of people are having a hard time feeling emotion, and I think a lot of people are treating themselves with substance abuse or hurting themselves or committing suicide just so that they can feel something or—in their mind—permanently feel nothing.”
A Super Bowl Champion punter and holder, Hunter Smith spent 12 years in the NFL, including a decade with the Indianapolis Colts. After leaving football in 2010, Hunter launched a music career which now records and tours under the name The Hunter Smith Band. Hunter, his wife and their kids live on a farm in Zionsville, Indiana.